Amour
inconditionnel
It was what
I was supposed to feel today : unconditional love. And I did !
So good.
The
« breath work » that I joined was powerful, and brought me to a deep
state of vibrations. All my body was electrified, radiantly vibrating. Such
strongly than when a man touched me with his hand, it made like an electric
choc between us, violent enough to move my arm as if he was touching me with a
taser gun.
This one
hour breathing, with didgeridoo and live instruments playing around us, laying
on the floor, was a long and interesting journey. Inside of me, deeply
connected with the meaning of life.
This kind
of breathing clears the mind and a lot of visions appear. I lived an Epiphany
as if I was next to the Virgin Mary, in a church, in Spain. I saw the crowd from up
above, as if we were going up on a kind of golden vessel to the arch of the
Cathedral. Actually, visions are beyond words.
Then, I
felt my mum next to me. Her love was
blowing me. I was so peaceful, feeling how deeply she loved me and was
taking care of me, I was leaning between
her legs, on a comfortable couch, in her warm arms, protected, so close , her
hands playing with my hair. We were sharing jokes about my men, sexuality,
friends. I was so relaxed and glad to present
her my life and what I am now, at 34 (the last time I saw her I was only
eighteen). I was not pretending anything, not playing any role, just being ME.
JUST BEING ME, and FEELING INCONDITIONALY BELOVED BY HER. It warmed my heart so
much. Nothing to do, just feel, relax.
Mum, dear
mummy, I love U. Your lips on my hair, kissing me softly, your quiet look on
me, acceptance, non judgment, just letting me be what I am, knowing my potential,
letting me the space to grow, to be my way.
I feel
blessed to have been able to feel that, as it's the first time in my life, and
even when she was alive, I didn't allow myself to feel that. PURE LOVE. Pure
bliss. Pure wellness.
My body
reconnected with this essential feeling of unconditional maternal love. So
vital, important, necessary to feel totally alive. Because it's the source of
LIFE. Everybody deserves it, and everybody can feel it. Cause it's beyond words
and stories. Whatever is your family's story, abandon, hurt, sufferings, etc...
Love is in the cells of our bodies, just about to be activated. It's what
happened to me today, just with conscious breathing, with a fantastic group of
warm hearted people, in a place safe enough to explore this sensitive and
fragile treasure.
I felt
shock waves, as if some cables along my body were suddenly reconnected, directly
to my heart.
The meaning
of life is to feel that. I was so grateful. Even if I'm irritated or angry or
depressed the day or week after, for whatever reasons, I promised myself and my
little big mum (in reference to Little Big Man with my favorite actor
Dustin Hofmann!), to never forget she loves me and that her love is unconditional.
Thank you
Virgin Mary to show up today, showing
me the way ! I understood this revealing apparition, as an archetype,
available in my soul memory, to help me in my seeking, because I was open and
ready to that.
When 's next one
?
EM
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